Natalie vs Stephen.

Hi.

I don't know who has seen V for Vendetta or not, but if you have...you'll know what I'm talking about. There's a part where Natalie Portman is being held prisoner and tortured. At one point she finds a letter from another prisoner. It's really a poignant scene.

I was thinking today about how amazing it would be to receive a letter like Natalie's in the movie. I know I never will, because life isn't a movie. And even if life were a movie I wouldn't be Natalie Portman...I would be Stephen Rea. I'd be all confused throughout the entire thing and then when it finally ended I would be like, "Fuck...what just happened?" Even in Interview with the Vampire, he's a spaz who got his body cut in half...

The point I'm trying to make I guess...I don't want to be Stephen Rea the confused one, or Stephen Fry the funny one, or even Hugo Weaving the awesome one.

I want to be Natalie. I want to be loved by someone who understands. I want to not be alone anymore and I want to matter to someone, anyone! I want to be me and not be ashamed, for once in my life, for who I am.