I'm tired and I'm lonely. I wish it could be Halloween every day. I would dress up as someone differentt each day, and have fun. I would be happy...so not me. But Halloween is over and for the next 364 days I'm me again. What shall I do? Keeping on my present course is definitly not a thing I wish to do.
Anyone ever notice how old habits really do die hard? My whole life I've reacted to certain situations in the same manner...the same unhealthy manner. I can't help myself...and I dont understand what's wrong with me. I do I surround myself with people prettier and smarter and better than me? I know that sounds terrible and shallow of me, but it is what it is. And it's true. I'm here in the corner, the best friend who tags along. Why cant I be the leading lady in my own story...it doesn't seem right.
Oh yeah...remember how a the beginning of the year I thought it was gonna be totally sweet to basically have my own dorm? I lied. It blows. Thought I would let you all know.
Love Kirsten.
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Just because you feel like they're maybe prettier, smarter, or better... doesn't mean they are.
ReplyDeleteKirsten, I think you're a beautiful person. And I don't mean that in shallow terms. I love you as a person, just as you are.
Hopefully I can come up and stay with you soon. Keep your chin up, darling.