Pathetic don't read. Go me.

Its amazing how one minute you can be so happy, and the next you want nothing more than to crawl into a hole. Where do I go from here? Does anyone know, because I sure as hell don't. I feel as if I sit in my room every night doing nothing but thinking about how pathetic my life is. And believe me it is. Moorhead is stupid and motherfucking cold. Fargo isn't much better, plus its in North Dakota. Concordia is great, but that's about the extent of what I like in this wasteland of snow, floods, and nothingness. Why don't I transfer you may ask. Because I honsetly could not deal with the added stress. Why am I so lonely? I have friends to be with here. I feel like such a douche. Spending the evening with my russian prof and classmates...not a good idea. Roza is fucking lonely. Lives alone in a four person apartment, no friends except us. Which is sad in and of itself. Yet here I sit, continuing to piss and moan about the shittiness of my life. She probablt wants to go home even more than I do. I wish I could take her home with us for Christmas, but we litterally could not sustain her. She hardly eats...which makes me feel like a cow. Goddamm.

Here's what I need. True Blood Season 3 to focus on relationships which I seem incapable of finding. Lost Season 6 to have something more ridiculous to busy my mind than fucking school. Christmas so I can lay in my bed with no one to bother be as I wallow in my own patheticness. And finally some fucking alcohol for obvious reasons. Will any of this come soon enough? Of course not. Talk to yall laters.

Kirsten